Since last time, I was offered a temporary job-accepted it- felt incredibly anxious and realised maybe this job wasn't for me- plucked up the courage to phone back two days later and turn down the job- was told that they wanted me for the job and wasn't going to take no for an answer- accepted the job again- started the job- realised I was actually okay at this job- applied for a permanent job in the same workplace- had a scary interview- and got the job!! PHEW.
I should be happy, yes? I should take it as a sign that I am doing a good job and that I am wanted, yes?
I'm still anxious. I'm still scared. I still feel that I'm going to do something terribly wrong and that I'm not going to be good enough. This sucks.
BUT on the more positive side...Christmas holidays are coming soon and I can spend time with loved ones. I can listen to my new Nashville Christmas CD I bought today- woop!
Here are some lovely pictures taken from pinterest to cheer us all up: